i'm so often invisible (53/365g)

While throwing away a flyer for a photo competition that was laying on the floor today I noticed the deadline was the 22nd. "Long past" I thought, and then... "Oh, that's today!" 

First I tried to figure out how to do double exposures on my sony (you can't do them in camera) then I took out my old pentax and did it then. 4 times on the shutter, two double exposures of me, quick edit, and submitted. I was very proud of myself.

I also wrote a very nice mini tribute for Lydia, which I hope Rainer will read at the funeral.

Started reading Invisible Women  - which I realize Brian read long before I had ever heard of it. It makes me soooo angry!

no colombas at the market today, not even for ready money (52/365g)

Irmi asked me to get 10 huge italian easter breads from Hofer, so I went there with the Lastenrad, but there were no breads available so I just ended up driving that big bike to work for no reason - almost tipping over once for taking a curve too fast and almost getting run over for taking a curve too slow. Very entertaining. 

After work I left the lastenrad and took the bus home, using the time to catch up with Joerg and Edward and Carina on the whole Lydia stuff. Back at home Brian had made a glorious chili, which we enjoyed. Then I practiced a lot with Henry who seemed receptive to learning a new piece on cello finally. He's working frantically on the entertainer right now on the piano, which is driving me a bit mad. Brian promised him "ragtime lessons" in the US, but i guess it will be me figuring out how to get those and from whom.

popcorn > popped ears (51/365g)

Snow day.... So much slushy snow - brian and i shoveled the walk in our pajamas (i was barefoot) 

Jacky left this morning after a light breakfast

Rubinig fixed our heater, which had made a loud pop when henry had turned it on a few days ago - luckily no singed eyebrows or anything else worse.

Brian and I did bureaucracy for contra and got the ridiculous messages back. it's really amazing how terrible the bureaucrats here are.

The pudding I made tasted like cardboard, nobody knows why. 

While I was sitting reading a book suddenly my ears closed up and would close up again as soon as I popped them. It stayed like that the rest of the day, which was very annoying and very worrying. Cars driving down the road sounded like jet engines.

We watched back to the future ii with Nina. Too violent for me

first old time jam (50/365g)

I didn't eat breakfast, and I met up with Katja so she could drive me to our rehearsal in Leoben, so we had Pad Thai lunch which was kind of breakfast too. 

Rehearsing in Leoben was productive but exhausting. On the way home it started to snow, and Katja dropped me off at graz nord in the nasty weather, but luckily i got to a bus that got me close to home. Hungry like crazy when I got home, I made bunches of food - baked bread and made a whole dinner which I scarfed down.

We had a wonderful evening with Phil, trying out an old-time jamming session followed by a late night Jacky and I hanging out, it was her turn to sleep over. 

ending up with ashes (49/365g)

Got my blood drawn for an anemia test today - I'm guessing I'm good and anemic from the amount of exhaustion I have every day after sleeping a reasonable amount.

Kunstgarten got a letter fining them for using a photo on their website.... Quite possibly it was a scam...

Listened to ockeghem requiem with Centa, and lit a candle in honor of Lydia

Tried to play the duduk which is surprisingly difficult. thank goodness for youtube tutorials.

Eva rehearsal.... Not playing so well... I should practice viola at least as much as the duduk

Late at night I was talking to papa and he was helping me find my confirmation certificate, and he ended up forwarding me an old email from me to fr., scanlon. my e-mail signature from 2001 was a quote from Abigail van Buren (Dear Abby) "If you fight fire with fire you will end up with ashes" ... which I took as kind of a message from my past selfe.

Fasching (48/365g)

Kunstgarten in the morning - Brian worked with Luis 

Dressed as a man with a dragon again - same as last year

Got pictures from all kinds of random people who saw him in the parade

While I was hanging around the festival myself the kids walked onto the scene like this... 

We helped clean up for an hour or two then I stood and got Krapfen, for which we payed with pfand the kids collected, and we had dinner

I had spontaneous girls night with Jacky where she and I had a nice late supper and watched Nikki glaser and a sting concert and talked and cuddled and eventually fell asleep. 

Was really nice

rosenmontag (47/365g)

7 hours of rehearsal (six playing, 1 eating) then 2 more hours of rehearsal with eva b. got the news that Lydia died. (Mama points out the last day she saw Aziz was rosenmontag)

went to a rosenmontag/faschingsparty dressed up as a musican - in an evening gown, with a cardboard sign around my neck that declared "WILL PLAY FOR FOOD" but ran out of energy and gumption and went home essentially right away.

Talked a long time with Edward and Jörg and Edward again.

--- in Memoriam Lydia ---

.... will be added later...